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it has to be a dream....

2:55 p.m. || November 03, 2004

I think for the most part I�m an optimist, I tend to be able to see some kind of silver lining in most things. Hell, if you think about it I can even be some what level headed at times. No really I�m being serious wether you believe it or not I can be very optimistic and level headed....

But in saying that I don�t have it in me to be optimistic or level headed with what I saw yesterday. Think about it on the one side you have all these states that voted on a ban on gay marriages because as we all know the gay peoples relationships are ever so threatening!?!?!

Then you have crazy people getting elected to the senate. Like that one guy who for the life can�t remember his name but I can remember that he doesn�t think gay people or unwed mothers should teach in our schools. You know I bet he also doesn�t believe in the teaching of evolution or in sex education... Yup he strikes me as a abstinence only teaching type. But I�m just guessing, and in guessing this makes things even worse for our country.

We have lost so much.....

You know what I take Molly�s position it would have been nice to see Kerry fight for the vote, even if he didn�t win. I think all of us who wanted change who understood we needed change now and not in four years would have liked to see him fight. Maybe it would have taken some of the sting out of the wound. But then again maybe it would of just made it harder in the end?

Okay I�m ending this on a some what positive note. This is where I tell you my new years resolution has just changed. I am now putting as much energy as humanly possible to fight the system. Hey the system fights us, I mean if your not white, middle class and have a happy married hetero insistence were not suppose to exist... So yes this Biracial peace loving, lesbian is fighting the system... Who�s joining me?

Okay so now some music...
I think it�s fitting...

FAITHLESS
Mass Destruction

(Whether long range weapon or suicide bomber
Wicked mind is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether you're soar away sun or BBC 1
Misinformation is a weapon of mass destruc
You could a Caucasian or a poor Asian
Racism is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether inflation or globalization
Fear is a weapon of mass destruction)
My dad came into my room holding his hat
I knew he was leaving,
he sat on my bed told me some facts, son.
I have a duty, calling on me
You and your sister be brave my little soldier
And don't forget all I told ya
Your the mister of the house now remember thisAnd when you wake up in the morning give ya momma a kiss
Then I had to say goodbye

In the morning woke momma with a kiss on each eyelid,
Even though I'm only a kid
Certain things can't be hid
Momma grabbed me
Held me like I was made of gold
But left her inner stories untold
I said, momma it will be alright
When daddy comes home, tonight

Whether long range weapon or suicide bomber
Wicked mind is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether you're soar away sun or BBC 1
Misinformation is a weapon of mass destruc
You could a Caucasian or a poor Asian
Racism is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether inflation or globalization
Fear is a weapon of mass destruction

Whether Halliburton or Enron or anyone
Greed is a weapon of mass destruction

We need to find courage, overcome
Inaction is a weapon of mass destruction
Inaction is a weapon of mass destruction
Inaction is a weapon of mass destruction

The skin under my chin
is exploding, again.
I'm getting stress from some other children.
I'm holding it in, we taking sides, like a politian
an if I get friction we get to fightin.
I defend my dad he's the best of all men
an whatever he's doin he's doin the right thing.
Its frightenin but it makes me mad, why do all
of these people seem to hate my dad?
an if that ain't enough, now I've got these spots.
I go to sleep every night with my stomach in knots.
and whats more I can hear Mama next door
explore the radio for reports of war.
and all we ever seem to do is hide the tears,
seems Daddy been gone for years.
But he was right, now I'm geared up for the fight
an he would be proud of me if Daddy came home tonight.


My story stops here, lets be clear
This scenario is happening everywhere
And you ain't going to nirvana or farvana
You're coming right back here to live out your karmaWith even more drama than previously, seriously
Just how many centuries have we been
waiting for someone else to make us free
And we refuse to see
That people overseas suffer just like we
Bad leadership and ego's unfettered and free
Who feed on the people they're supposed to lead
I don't need good people to pray and wait
For the lord to make it all straight
There's only now, do it right.
Cos I don't want your daddy, leaving home tonight

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Leftovers...

A life time isn't aslong as it use to be - August 24, 2006
Heart bleeding in the end - May 05, 2006
Heads spinning - March 17, 2006
Kind of interesting - February 23, 2006
ten years in the making - February 19, 2006